February 21/10 - 4:55 p.m.

Platform
by lauren white

I have the smallest name,
one assured to carve in stone.
In the end no one's to blame,
we've all spent some time alone.

Throw my hands against the wall,
shattered glass and broken hands.
I've faught the battles, lost them all,
failed strategies and plans.

I've been stuck in heart ache,
let the last train pass me by.
Can't lose what i cant shake.
Why leave when I could try?

February 12/10 - 6:11 p.m.

Now's Not A Good Time
by lauren white

A cracked sidewalk sulked beneath our feet as we made our way together.
Our palms sweaty, intertwined, the clouds spinning in our sky.
I love the spots that mature your face, and the smile that shames the sunlight.
All I can hear is laughter, the beautiful song of our simple past, and our new future.

A cold floor chills me, numb, as I lay alone on tiled floor.
My palms sweaty, a nervous wreck, thoughts spinning in my head.
I hate those stupid freckles, I hate your fake grin, I really do.
I can still hear that echoed laughter, the mocking song of the dead past, and the empty future.

Your bedroom sheets my protection, your arms stretched among me, the caress of your fingers.
I could feel you, as close as you've ever been, a heartbeat birthing my life anew.
Close my eyes and I can almost remember summer air.
Close my eyes, and everything you say is real.

My bedroom sheets are my coffin, my arms wrapped around myself, my shaking fingers.
I can't feel a thing, you're farther than you've ever been, and your heartbeat killed my soul.
Close my eyes and I can't take it any longer.
Close my eyes, and I remember every word you never meant.

I see your face, and find my lips onto yours.
You take my breath away, I swear, I never want to live another way.
You hold me, you'd never let me go.
You're my best friend, we're lovers.

I see your face, you won't notice.
You take my breath away 'till I turn blue, I can't live this way.
You won't say a word, and I swear, I can't ever let it go.
You were my best friend, and I lost you.

February 09/10 - 10:16 p.m.

Never Free
by lauren white

Stepped off your doorstep, the sting of night air.
I'll never forget this, won't forget you I swear.
You sputtered a reason, a breath you withdrew.
When did this story become all about you?
An escaped tear, salt down my cheek.
It spun down my lip, reflection of the weak.
My hair in my face as I walked down the drive.
Surprising myself, I came out alive.
You could have been running strait after me,
but I wouldn't have known, don't care. The way it should be.
Your heart can stray elsewhere, wherever you please.
Just don't come back crying. I don't want this disease.
I found the closure I'd prayed for, my entire life.
The disappearance of love, the death of all strife.

Febuary 01/10 - 3:24 p.m.

I'm Just Here To Remind You
by lauren white

You shifted your eyes to the west,
over my shoulder and far away.
A face as vacant as your promises
as you stepped towards me, awkward embrace.

I could feel you breath a sigh,
and I couldn't help but wonder: How did you get so far away?
Your fists clenched,
closed lips.

I keep running back, frantic pebbles on the window sill.
You’re tired apology, the snap of closing blinds.
My bones shake, violence I can't avoid.
I did this to myself.

I'll drive around your block,
watch the shadows dance in yellow light.
I know she's there,
the girl that lit the west with lust.

You tell me we're not through,
I know, we're far from done.
Our love on repeat like our favourite song.
I just don't see how I could forgive you.

You’ve slaughtered all my soul, bottled up my passion.
Hung my heart from a string, pulled up past my reach.
I swear, I'm so sick of this, intoxicated.
The liquor of your absence.