February 12/10 - 6:11 p.m.

Now's Not A Good Time
by lauren white

A cracked sidewalk sulked beneath our feet as we made our way together.
Our palms sweaty, intertwined, the clouds spinning in our sky.
I love the spots that mature your face, and the smile that shames the sunlight.
All I can hear is laughter, the beautiful song of our simple past, and our new future.

A cold floor chills me, numb, as I lay alone on tiled floor.
My palms sweaty, a nervous wreck, thoughts spinning in my head.
I hate those stupid freckles, I hate your fake grin, I really do.
I can still hear that echoed laughter, the mocking song of the dead past, and the empty future.

Your bedroom sheets my protection, your arms stretched among me, the caress of your fingers.
I could feel you, as close as you've ever been, a heartbeat birthing my life anew.
Close my eyes and I can almost remember summer air.
Close my eyes, and everything you say is real.

My bedroom sheets are my coffin, my arms wrapped around myself, my shaking fingers.
I can't feel a thing, you're farther than you've ever been, and your heartbeat killed my soul.
Close my eyes and I can't take it any longer.
Close my eyes, and I remember every word you never meant.

I see your face, and find my lips onto yours.
You take my breath away, I swear, I never want to live another way.
You hold me, you'd never let me go.
You're my best friend, we're lovers.

I see your face, you won't notice.
You take my breath away 'till I turn blue, I can't live this way.
You won't say a word, and I swear, I can't ever let it go.
You were my best friend, and I lost you.