I probably could have been mad at you all day today. I probably could have held the grudge I've been carrying with me, and continue on yelling as I did this morning. I really could have. Maybe I should have? I didn't though. I couldn't, though. Lucky you.
I guess there's some advantages of having a best friend for an ex boyfriend. Sure, it hurts a million times more to be rejected, but it's easier. Kind of. In a sense. Now wounds will be glossed over with a fresh friendship. We can grow and learn from all of this, and still be in the comforts of each others company. Sounds fun. Sounds complicated, but I'm strong enough.
Hey, who knows whats in store for our future? We really don't have a clue, that's certain. Things happen, things change. Circumstances alter and feelings come in heavy waves. For now though, I'm just happy I have you. You're amazing. You hurt me, but you're a keeper. Ironic.
I'm just happy I have you. I'm just glad you're eyes still fill with love when you look at me, regardless of how you use that love. Just as long as I have it, I'll get through.
After all, you've kept me alive this long. I owe you this much. Now its my turn, to not back down on you.
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