October 26/09 - 12:16 a.m.

Dearest, Happiness.

Do you want to know a secret?
A vicious secret, that rattles off my ribcage
and beats to the rhythm of your being?
Races to the crash of your syllables,
running together into a perfect word?
It's love. I love you too.

How foolish, am I?
I beg of you, scold me.
The shadow that's crept across my eyesight blinds me.
I'm blinded.
I suppose, I'd rather not see who I've become.
I'm changing more often than the weather,
and your shifting like the waves of my imagination.

Things are getting rough, where's the bright side?
The amazement in your eyes dimmed with the sound of your voice.
You're tired, aren't you?
I don't blame you, i swear.
Don't you believe me?
It figures I'd put this to waste. We waste everything.
I should have embraced it while it existed, not asked questions.
I always question. I question myself.
Why is it always about me?

This is about you, my love.
About how beautiful you are. How gorgeous our love is, was.
You amaze me.
Your smile, oh please God, bring that smile back to me.
This world is so big, but with you I feel twice as tall.
I found happiness, so why would I let it go?
Why do I do this to myself?

Take me back into your arms.
Just fall for me, damn it, just fall.
Tie your hands behind your back and let me catch you.
I can't stand up, but from here I can soften your modest landing.
It's selfish to say, but I need you.
You're so perfect, perfection at it's finest.
You're my personal peace of mine bound by warm flesh.

Take my heart. You can abuse it, just take it.
Shove it in your pocket, string me along.
I've made some bad decisions, but I've decided on you.
I'm not turning back, not again, not ever.

I'm just floating through life, trying to find an answer.
Just one answer, to one of my questions.
But how cruel a game.
A lifetime and not one strand of knowing.
I don't know anything at all, but what my heart tells me.
What you've shown me.
I see you, and that's as real as this could ever get.
You make me happy.
I feel happy.
Together, happiness.